The Universe Speaks Loud... but you don't hear it

Sometimes the universe has it's way of speaking to you. It's been a humbling experience down this road. I'm not sure if this is as far as its taking me but I know after my jobless experience, it's been a stressful ride and I only cried like 3 times, which 2 of those were out of anger. The 1 time I think I just needed to relieve some pressure...
By all means,  I'm able to be happy. My spirit is happy. I've lost some people along the way and that's cool. I wish them much peace and maybe in due time when I allow them back in my life, they'll be ready for me... Then again in this humbling experience I can just worry about today. Things I can't change, I won't fight. I'll just let it happen.
You can't change anything, it's easier to know that. Know you're going to do what the universe has in store for you, it's easier to grow like that. In the upmost respect of yourself and the universe, live as free as you can. The universe doesn't have a given time line and we can't hold on to tomorrow, better to live like that.

"I'm turnin' into a nigga that thinks about money and women, like 24/7. That's where my life took me. That's just how shit happened to go"
-Drake (Know yourself)

Cheater Cheater... why?

Do you get into a relationship to be with someone? I thought yes, but the question came up of , why cheat? Are you bored? Is it something you think you're missing? You know that 80/20 rule?
I'll admit, I've been a cheater and been cheated on. I thought cheating and admitting would get me out of a bad situation. Not the case, I felt like I was in a bad movie. Then I questioned, if I cheated and I told you, why torture me mentally? I thought, "You could just break up with me". I later found out that individual did cheat, did he admit it? Nope! He is that type that'll lie to his grave, as long as he never looks like the bad guy.
It's clear the flesh is weak, you become tempted. The individual that cheats can always have an excuse of why they did it. But the real question is, WHY?
As humans we are merely that, human. If you're a biblical type, Eve and the tree is a definite example. Adam is the example of "stop snitching". Lol!!
Seriously , we get into relationships and expect all questions to be answered. We think we'll  find ourselves, but we don't. It's not guaranteed that shit  can be worked out. Maybe, just maybe you're in that relationship that grows, then maybe again... maybe not.
My honest opinion, if you're dating and you cheat... that mf ain't shit. If you're married, realize you got married and in front of God and a whole bunch of people you may or may not like... and in this case in the words of Ol' Otis, "It's cheaper to keeper her"...or him.

"Mad cause he ain't like me. Oh you mad cause nobody ever did it like me. All the care I would take. All the love that we made. Now you're trying to find somebody to replace what I gave to you"
-Drake (Shot for me)

Your Tattoos Make You A Horrible Mother... Really?

Does your INK make you a bad parent? Are you unlikely to have a fantasy wedding with Ink? You have tattoos,  will your child get them too?

12 tattoos and counting, 10 years of raising a beautiful daughter, and I'm still a kick ass parent. Having tattoos as a female, people who don't have them or don't understand the art, can make you feel almost less of a woman/man/parent because of the tattoos. You have those that chose their tattoo position to strategically hide when they wed, but who says you'll get married? In my twenties, I don't see marriage in the near future (too many "I'm not ready" types), but whomever is lucky enough, he'll love the art too. Being a thespian and a student ambassador in undergrad, I mastered how to cover my art with makeup. Should I have to? No, but that was then. Now, if it doesn't put money in my pocket/feed my family, then the INK lives.

One famous parent, Mark Wahlberg in 2012 removed his tattoo of Bob Marley located on his shoulder, in hopes that he will deter his children. Let this be known, neither of my parents, grandparents, or uncles and aunts have tattoos. My oldest brother has one tat. I'm 1 of 5 and I'm the one with the most. Myself and my daughter's father are neck and neck with the number of tattoos. As a young child, Cailyn would take washable markers and say "look I have tattoos like daddy!". Now at 10 they amuse her as art but the pain she's aware of and isn't fond of what all it takes to get at tattoo.

"How many of our parents marriages lasted'. 

-Drake (Fireworks) 

Do you trust... again?

There is always a relationship  (friend, family, significant other) that makes you question your next move. Either they did or said something to put that wall up higher than The Great Wall of China. That person that has known you, can be the one to hurt you the hardest.   

Could giving someone another chance make you become a bigger idiot than them? Many feel trying to be the bigger person can make you mean because you never forget and you're always expecting that idiot to mess up again. 

Yes, one could say I'm contridicting myself when I say " let it go", but I'm sensitive when it comes to the heart. In the words of the late great Maya Angelou, "when someone shows you who they are believe  them, the first time". The heart is sensitive and the brain even more. You have 1 life to live and some people aren't worth being apart of it. Learn the lesson and carry on.

 When do you draw the line? Do you forgive and forget? Are you able to trust a person won't fuck up...again? Or is it instilled in their DNA and incapable of being a friend or loved one?

 "Tell me, how the fuck we supposed to stay friends
When you got a bunch of feelings that you don't show?" -Drake (Trust Issues)

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Strong, educated, determined, and a mother...with no man

Baby momma. Mom. Mother. Mommy. These are all titles I wear well. Being a Mommy and dating can be difficult. You have the kind of men out here that  can either handle it or they are too weak. You know the man I'm talking about, the one that thinks you want him to be your child's father. The one that assumes it's going to be BD/BM (BABY DADDY/BABY MOMMA) drama.
It never fails, true my daughter is my life. I really only trust a handle full of males around her,  which none of them I've ever dated. I love that girl and never regret her. She made me the woman people love to know. Thank her when you see us out because I wouldn't have completed  half of what I have without her.
Being a mom isn't bad, she is my responsibility, and I have a strong support system. If the man I'm dating can't handle that, then I guess it will always be the two of us. If the man that I'm dating thinks he's too accomplished to be with a "baby momma", then I guess it will always be the two of us and OUR accomplishments .  If the guy I'm dating isn't able to comprehend that I make sacrifices for me and my daughter's wellbeing, then I guess its just the two of us. If the guy I'm dating can't accept the responsibility of just being a responsible male role model; not a dad, not step daddy, not a boyfriend, but responsible male... Then I'm happy with it being just me and my Princess... until she finds a man that will respect her... It's just the two of us. I'm a mom. I'm not looking for someone to sponsor us. I'm literally looking for a man that can be in our life without thinking he's better than me if he doesn't have kids or a man that if he has a kid or few, that he takes care of those kids.

RANT: Life

Realize you can't change shit. Thats a given, you can't change people, you can't change a decision you already made, you can't worry about shit. You just have to live. You hold on to shit and it makes you sick. It makes you worse. You become the person you can't be around and wonder why no one wants to be around you.
I've taken a minute off of writing to get a hold on things that I couldn't change. As if was a slave to giving up on what I love to ensure the satisfaction of others. So in my time off, I did the shit I love;I decided to live and do homework. It's only so much you can take of doing for others that don't value you. Sometimes it's healthy to shut out the negative and all the bad vibes, to surround yourself with total peace.

My advice to you is my daughter's favorite phase from the movie FROZEN, "Let it go!"

" You only live once, that's the motto, ni--a Yolo!"
-Drake The Motto